In the mountains
My heart belongs in the mountains. From my beginning I knew
this is where my mind had taught me it should stay. Where
it must stay. For it is there where I belonged, never to hear
love's sweet song.
I lay awake nights, not sleeping, not dreaming, would that
my heart would go to sleep, then it would no longer weep.
Love hurt's and people say Your young, your strong.
Don't worry you can bear it. I just nod my head now,
each time I hear it. Giving the would be philosopher acknowledgement,
they not knowing that their words fall short.
Myself coming to a true conclusion that to believe in love's
fantasy as I once had done was only that. I now force my heart
to understand that it will never come to be a reality for
me.
I had made a mistake when I allowed my heart to lead, but once
again .I see that in the life of love, I just can't win.
And no one shows me why.
Though there are some that say to me, hear these comforting
words Oh! But youre a great guy. And once again I walk
away and all I feel is hollow.
Many like me go online to talk, to find those that would give
us their time, to feel worthy. Though I admit to have met
some very good people. I will say to you Jennifer, talking
the way you do, it is good people like you who have opened
up your hearts have been so kind, and gave me the chance to
know you, I thank you, and I love you. for that.
So now my mind tells my spirit, time has come and I now that
which I should and must do. It is time for me to go back to my
mountains recover myself, and give the mountains what
should have stayed . I will put my heart back, put it where
it belongs. They alone have always comforted me. I am unafraid
of what will be for the mountains are my destiny . I know soon
I will see their majesty and might ... I will join the mountains
once again with much delight. No sound will be heard , not
a single word.
Silence, as many say is golden. And here is where I will feel
when the light is near.
No longer to remember. Myself coming to the heart felt conclusion
that I was not meant to believe in love's fantasy as
I once had done. , I love you dear.
I'll say these words of good-bye . And for this is final
moment I allow salty tears to sting my eyes. I see through
them that the stars shine bright. It is late. Thank you for
letting me be if only for a moment In loves fantasy.