You draw out of me
that which I desire to hide
what presents itself to me
is an awareness I've avoided

It's true
I've never known love
I sought love,
dreamed love
fantasized love,
wrote of lost love
yet always wanted love
Presented with the options
of this illusive emotion
I've run, side stepped
cheated the idea,
the concept ..
the possibility,
the frightening realization that
one day
I would have to participate
walk further, listen more
let go,
notice emotions that even now
fight me like a demon
a nightmare that gives me no peace
yet I dream awake
drinking from a well
that yields no water
and I thirst ...
I can feast upon the table of life
yet I can not quench my desire
to drown in the eyes of your wants,
desires, dreams, fantasies ...
knowing you,
the curve of your jaw
the caress of your cheek
against mine
the taste of lips,
feeding me, feeling me
tongues playing, temptations, anticipation's,
ecstasy, climax,
fulfillment's,
forbidden realities awakens
from a soul
and spills forth from the well
once thought dry
call it love, when we love
say the word, believe it has meaning
fulfill it's concept,
explore it depth
breath it's essence,
touch the sensuality,
taste the sweetness
dwell in the weakness
shared from our bodies
open doors,
once thought closed
compromise,
bare all,
dispel truth
believe lies and become
that which is our fate
going forward,
are we finished looking back,
taking stock in our first conceived idea,
dream, concept, desire,
lust of the flesh,
sin of the soul
blessed by a lonely heart
have we become the destroyer of ourselves
will confession,
redemption,
prayer save us
if we are to burn, intertwined,
flamed by what we perceive
that illusive word
love means ...

can we bare it
if we missed
it's true meaning
in the end,
i think not

c 2003